so here it goes. The very first one. The sink or swim of blogging. This would be the post where I lay it all out there and all that jazz. Lets just be honest here. The first post is the hardest. It's that moment when you try to sell yourself to an audience. Well I'm no salesman so I guess I'm just going to tell it how it is and not care about whether anyone's listening, though let's be honest, everyone wants to have an audience every now and then. So here we go then. I'm a mother to a four year old snot nosed pixy named Kelcy. She lights up my world but at times...she also drains my patience, such is love my friends! I'm 26 and have personal struggles not unlike many others. ( I just like to complain more) I grew up in many different foster homes. I was always trying to make everyone around me care about me. I craved love like I now crave chocolate. (that's a lot!) I grew up graduated went into the military, got out of the military, had a baby and packed on some pounds. And here lies the reason for this blog. I want to lose the extra 40 lbs I have just hanging around like an unwanted Inlaw. It has so overstayed its welcome! I did a weight loss program 1 1/2 years ago and was able to get down to 140 lbs but when I found myself at my skinniest/happiest I somehow managed to sabbatoge myself. So this time I'm going to do it differently. I'm going to try and deal with those little mean spirited thoughts and actions that I encounter inside this cranium of mine. I'm going to eat fruits, veggies and less junk. tomorrow morning I'll weigh myself, though I'd really rather not, and posted it on here. From there I'll just moniter my thoughts and feelings. But I'm also going to use this little do hickey to self analyze my thoughts and emotions. Hey I've taken enough psych classes why the hell not? So here I am in all my glory. Brace yourself folks!